Hi all. I'm having a really bad few days. Not really having much D but am constantly in the bathroom. Not to mention the fact that all day long I have this really full pressure feeling in my gut. Hard to even stand up straight because when I do I feel like things inside are ripping apart. Very painful. I am basically at the end of my rope, I feel like I just cant keep going like this, I want all this pain to stop but nothing I do seems to help. Almost seems like when I have a pretty good day without as much pain I let my guard down and try to think positive and say to myself "this will be a good day, I don't have time for pain today and I will ignore my symptoms so I can get things done" Well, low and behold as soon as I think positive I get flareups that are so severe I can't even get comfortable in any position and they last for at least a week. My doctor won't give me any more pain meds because he doesn't want me to be dependant on them. What he doesn't realize is that I already am dependant in the sense that without them I am curled up in a ball on the couch crying and not even able to take care of my two small children! I need help but can't seem to get any other than on this board!! Sorry for rambling but I am sitting here holding my gut with one hand and crying my eyes out while typing with the other. I am in so much pain I can't stand it anymore!!Sandi