today is my 23rd birthday and i am sitting at home because i am so sick today. i have not been diagnosed with ibs yet, but i'm in the testing process and after reading about all the signs i'm pretty sure it's what i have. so there will be no going out to diner for me tonight. i don't even want my boyfriend to come over. and he just doesn't understand. i first started noticing i was different my first year at college. i would have to go to the bathroom in the middle of a class. i would feel like i ouldn't hold it. i got all sweaty and had palpitations. then it started happening more frequently. almost constantly. i would be very careful with what i ate. i was always underweight, so my parents blamed it on that, but the more heavy the food was, the worse my stomch felt.then i turned 21 and found out i couldn't handle alcohol. i would be running for the bathroom after one or two drinks. so i stopped drinking. if i do have ibs it comes and goes. i can remember back to a few times when i would be regular for a week or two. if felt great. but it's been getting worse, so i finally got help.i am so sick of not being able to eat and do things like normal people. i feel like this has taking over my whole life. sometimes people call me a hypochondriac and that this is all in my head. sometimes i wish i could believe them. i just wanted one normal day. some birthday.