As of June 8th i am a gramma again, times 4
Elijah Ray--7lbs14oz 21 inches long. Little brother to Sarah, Faith and Hope.I am still working the 12 hours a week--barely.I still have alot of pain--wether it is FM or the Lyme or both--i dont no.I am headed for the one year mark when my life changed.I have not slept more than 3 hours per night for over a week.I am cranky and teary.I have no energy. I rarely have the "good days" people talk about.I am going to apply for SSD tomorrow just because. Knowing i will be denyed over and over. Got to do something. Doesnt look like i am going to go back to work full time. My stash is gone!I do not understand the folks that have FM but say they dont have pain or can hold down a full time job??? I wonder why i can not do it too.
What is wrong with me?I swim---i walk---i do stairs 20 times aday (if i want to eat and sleep in my own bed).I can not take anti-D. I have given in to narcotic pain meds as that is all that works and allows me some life.Im sad cause no one is ever here. So i surf around. But you all have a special place in my heart as here is where i first recieved support. But i feel like i am doing something wrong--you all seem to be better--if only i could get by on a tylenol pm!!!!
Hope you all stay wellDebbie


