OK I have nothing but pitty. My life sucks b/c of IBS/Crohn's. The docs suck, the toilet sucks, the d sucks, etc. No one understands, not even me. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I am not a victim. I have won all the other battles in my life, but not this one. People to think I am gay (not that there's anything wrong with that). Decent looking, outgoing, owns business, 29 yr old male, not married or dating. But how can I date? OK fine, I have a bit of a low self esteem, but I can get over THAT... not the IBS, that is a deal breaker. No one knows, never will. Sometimes I want to die. Why me? I did so much good with so little. I came from a broken home with an abusive mom who later went insane. And then I took care of her and bought her a house, and send her money every month (aren't I the perfect angel? lol, I am not but I still don't think I deserve this). And maybe it isn't about that, it's about cause and effect. And why do I sometimes get the feeling my doc was sleeping with his gastroenterology 101 professor in college(that's how he passed..get it?) And most importantly, what am I supposed to do? I am not crazy, I just feel like any other normal human being would feel, if he felt like he had food poisoning... all the time!I hope that I will find a cure. The IBS has got me as a prisoner at home. I have tried many things and will go on until I find it. And if I don't find a cure, I will keep on looking. Maybe one day I will come to terms with it and accept that I just have to live with it. I hope that day never comes.