Hey KC!!I know how you feel, sometimes I think with all the other #### in my life, why do I have this huge other thing hanging over me?!?!?!I know its not fair and all that stuff, but letting it get you that down doesnt help much either. I know it is easier said than done, to 'think positively' cos most the people that say it have no idea what your going through, but thats the only way that I can get through some days, by thinking of the positives and hoping tomorrow is a better day. Life isnt meant to be easy, but just try and take it all in your stride, and hopefully things wilkl become a little easier for you,hope everything works out well for you!