All my life I've been accustomed to large, dark brown, infrequent stools. I had an insecurity with going to the bathroom anywhere but home, so I used to hold back on having any BM's which I know now is so not good to do. For the last few years or so, I've really tried to focus on being as healthy as possible. I have PCOS and was trying to lose weight before my wedding August 2015, I ended up losing 42 lbs on my own over a few years of trying and right before my wedding I started Phentermine and that helped me lose another 10lbs. June of this year I was the Matron of Honor in my friend's wedding so I had a lot of things on my plate. I started having loser (not diarrhea, but soft) narrower stools and was having a BM every morning which I'd never been used to. I started to think it was because I'd been working on being healthy, that I was getting into a better routine and eating the right foods. Then I started to question why my BM's were not dark brown anymore, but more light tan and why they were narrow and not big. Then of course I stumbled on all the warning signs of colon cancer. I went to my PCP and she told me it was probably IBS and gave me a laxative which didn't really do much. I still had the thin stools, and the bloating and cramping so I asked if my PCP would prescribe me a probiotic and the relief was almost instantly with the nausea and cramping, but she suggested I go to a GI Dr. and get a colonoscopy. My Dad had polyps removed when he got his colonoscopy in his 50's. I went to a GI Nurse practitioner and she suggested a flex sig but I was pregnant at the time, I'm 32 and I recently had a miscarriage this last October and since I'm still having the thin stools (sometimes just a pile of thin pieces) and they scheduled a colonoscopy for January 4. I'm scared that if my husband and I don't keep trying to get pregnant that I'll miss whatever window we might have left...but if I get pregnant they can't do the colonoscopy. The GI nurse I recently saw said she doesn't think I have colon cancer, but they have to rule it out (understandable) but what are my chances of having this? Could my bowel changes be cause from me eating better and maybe my colon shrank? From my blood work done 6 months ago I have no signs of anemia, and no weight loss. The only flag was my elevated cholesterol.
I don't want to negotiate with my heath or have to worry about it, but I am feeling so stuck right now and I'm scared and don't know what to do. The colonoscopy truly terrifies me.
I don't want to negotiate with my heath or have to worry about it, but I am feeling so stuck right now and I'm scared and don't know what to do. The colonoscopy truly terrifies me.
Im 19 and i did it, if i can do it, then you can too! Just stay strong and you will be fine, and once its done, its done. 
