I have IBS-d for a while now and have been taking Xanax and Paxil CR for the anxiety I get when I need to leave home and take the train. Well today, i needed to go to Manhattan for a doctor's visit and I felt sick on the train ride. On top of this the train had some mechanical problems and got stuck in the middle of the tunnel and to make a long story short I did not make it to the bathroom. I was so embarrassed and angry that this happended to me, its the thing I have been afraid of. This happened today and I still feel terrible. I told my wife and we cried together. I am so glad that I have a wonderful wife to support me but I now feel more afraid than ever to leave the house. Thanks for listening I just needed to let this out.