--------------------------------------------------------------------------------hello all. This is probably a little off subject, but I just need some one to talk to. My husband informed me yesterday morning, that he wants a divorce. He is tired of me being sick all the time. I have severe IBS(A). I won a court hearing in which the judge found me to be disabled because of the severity of my condition. This is my second marriage. In my first marriage, my husband made enough money to support all of us, so I never had to ask the government for help.After 16 years of marriage to an alchoholic however my IBS had gotten so much worse so we opted for divorce. Now because of my lack of work history, I am not eligible to collect disability, just SSI(which is to supplement my current husbands income. Anyway before I married my now husband, I told him all about the IBS and panic attacks. He even researched it and told me that he could handle anything as long as I wasn't an alchoholic. WHich I am not.Well after almost three years of him losing job after job and us becoming so finacially in debt which by the way has ruined my credit, My stress level is through the roof once again causing big problems with my IBS. And now when he finally gets a decent job making good money, he can't handle being married to me anymore! My God it hurts so much to hear that. I packed up my two kids, gave away all my pets (he got to keep his dog) and moved away from my entire family to move here to Amine to live with him where all his friends are and all his family is. I just feel like I could die! I nursed this man through 3 surgeries! I rubbed his back almost every night and was very affectionate. I told him I loved him hourly. I massaged away his headaches. I stayed up nights watching him breathe until he was diagnosised with sleep apnea and now wears a breathing machine at night. I take care of his ailing old dog every day. The house is kept clean and dinner is onthe table almost every night except sometimes after a serious bout when I just can't get moving. He say's he might as well be single because my being sick alot keeps me from going out alot. What more does he want from me. I hate living like this myself!!!! I hate IBS. I hate Panic attacks, and right now I don't particuliarly like myself. I want to be normal. I was fine with my limitations until he made me feel less then human. I don't think I'm a bad wife. I never spend money on myself. I never ask for jewelry or for fancy clothes, nothing like that. All I wanted was a warm home and to be loved unconditionally. Sometimes the I think the only way to get that, is to advertise that I am looking for a male who also has IBS. Sorry for running off like that, I just have no one to turn to right now. Thanks for listening.
